so far in my head that words are failing to form
it's uhh
umm
hmmm
wha?
oh
Ohh
yeah
uh huh
ok.
night is spent flipping
tossing
sighing
staring at the ceiling
waking in mid thought
dreaming in feeling rather than images
like how we give unique feeling to people
that can't be described in words
or sound
or sight
the feeling is undefined by sensory comprehension
our basis for perception of experience
I don't know what level I am operating on
somewhere beyond capable expression
this is my comical attempt at communication
when even I don't know what I'm talking about
because this feeling cannot be defined using my built-in structure of understanding
I am not talking around the thought (this time)
but using audience to poke words out.
I have no idea if it's working
but the shape of this
is bottom heavy.
September 27, 2005