Exclusion
I suppose this one's been a long time coming.
you say I put myself there
here
but I say
no
I am put here.
I know my place every time I'm shown the door.
every time there's a three
instead of a four.
I'm the one left counting
one
two
three
now I'm out of people
and standing outside the circle
cause it was here before I ever came along.
fuck her,
she doesn't live here
she doesn't matter
fuck her.
I wasn't asked
I was told.
and I'm sure you think this fight is getting old by now.
I hear voices in the background
of your sleepy voice
and I assume you were one of the voices in the background
before I ever came along.
you do me a favor
when you take a break from the conversation.
we talk across immediate phone lines
and something gets lost in the translation
cause I'm throwing my phone down
and you're back to the background.
paranoia speaks.
December 10, 2005