Faulty Wiring
I came from the factory
with faulty wiring
power surges of emotion
come racing through my veins
then I completely shut off
turning me on
and turning me off
doesn't work
it's the faulty wiring
installed at birth
I can be a machine if I need
making easier the lives of my users
a high producer of niceties and smiles
assembly line thought
this
then this
then this
then this
then this
then something resembling completion
this machine sighs a heavy breath
exhaling before the electronic synapses rush
blah blah chemical imbalance
your serotonin isn't making the leap
pop pop
poppoppop
POP
POPPOP
____emotional flatline____
flipping circuit breakers
is an external solution
to an internal malfunction -
the faulty wiring
can a machine repair itself
after sitting idle and ignored?
what is the end of rectification?
conversion into direct current
thought feeding behavior
rather than wondering why later
but this seems to be
a synchronized concurrent
of idea and action
two electric streams screaming for attention
and another goddamn explanation
replacing me doesn't erase existence
suing my maker disguises my responsibility
I came from the factory
with faulty wiring
shorting out is more like shorting into
bursts of words
sparking from the tips of my fingers
I've been trying to set myself ablaze
my whole damn life
and finally
finally
a little fire is burning,
must be the faulty wiring.
December 27, 2005